Being A Good Wife

I try really hard to be the perfect wife. You know the ones that have their lives all figured out, have the perfect home and cook every night. Well, turns out I'm not even close to that. At least not in the traditional sense. I work so hard at building this business of mine that my wife duties are often the area that suffer the most. It's seriously so hard to work hard doing your own thing and keeping up with it all (and I don't even have kids! Major props to moms, am I right?!) I spend a lot of time feeling incredibly guilty about it all. Some days I just want to quit and focus on being a wife, but I know that wouldn't make me all the way happy either. So why can't I seem to find the balance? Why must I take on more than I can chew and push myself to the limits, only to find new limits and push myself to those? Well, it turns out, I'm always going to push myself to the limits, that is just my nature. I'm always going to be dreaming bigger and finding new heights. But I'm always going to strive to be that perfect wife. Until I get to a point of finding the balance in it all, I'll just have to make due with what I have.

Hiring house cleaners, having Google Express run my errands, and I won't even tell you how my laundry gets done (yes, I sometimes outsource that too). Its not quite the vision I had in mind, but it works and at the moment it will have to do. Hopefully when I have kids I'll start spending more time on the home. I think there is something to be said for a child (either gender) that knows how to cook, clean, sew, do laundry and generally take care of him/herself and others. Those are values I plan to instill in my children like my parents instilled in me (I promise they did. But my dad was a hard worker who started his own company when I was little, so apparently I took after him a little more than my mom).

My husband signed us up for Blue Apron last week. It is a service that sends you the ingredients and recipe you need to make a dinner for two. The service takes care of meal planning and shopping, and you get to cook it! Here is an example of what they sent to us for one of the dishes!

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We actually had a lot of fun doing it, and the meals were so so good. The best part is that we got to cook something we would otherwise not have tried. The whole experience was pretty awesome! These are the meals we tried this week and I'm pretty excited to do it again soon.




For now I'll add blue apron to that list of outsourcing. Now, who would have thought that a service that sends you groceries and recipes would spark such an internal debate in my mind and in my life?!